Muse 65: Perfect

found via ssense

I think, he said, you're perfect regardless. Well, that's what I heard him say in my mind but in actuality, I'm sure the spoken words never come close to my imagination. In the recess of my mind, everything he said was perfect because everything he did matched the prince charming I imagined to be. It was so hard to keep reality separate from fiction, so hard when all I wanted was everything to be perfect. Perfection has never been so disappointing; it was like when I discovered my blood wasn't blue, but red. I expected a wild blue sea to consume me when it all flowed out of those blue veins, but instead, I drowned in reality. 

Muse 30: Heartbreak Method

found via =Soyismyhomeboy

I don't want to tell you, but if you look into my eyes you can see it. I don't want to break your heart now - but understand that our relationship is built on the medication I feed you. And so, you ask me why I'm gone all the time, why I only fickly come and go so, lasting only as long the bewitching hour of twilight. Why, there's a reason I cannot keep my promises, cannot let you trust me completely, and this reason is a knife that tears scars.

But for now ... we have so many more years to go before the red sea crashes back down on us, so I won't break your heart now. It will mean breaking mine in the process, but I'm already so gone, so broken, it hardly matters anymore. For now I'll just silver spoon you with happiness before the time comes for me to fade away. And then the spell will work, and you won't notice that I have left your future. This coming and going is permanent. And you will learn that I am slowly preparing you for a life without me.